Wow, it's been a while. Well everyone, I'm living in Sydney now. I live in a suburb called Jannali, in a one bedroom flat on my own. Hurrah! There's too much to write here, therefore, CALL ME!!!

Au revoir.

Well hiya all. I haven't updated in quite a while.

Anyway, what's been happening with me, eh? Well, we have a Canadian skateboarder moving in with us on Thursday. Hurrah! Another person to skate with! He comes down from Canada in the morning I think, I'll have to check. Anyway, yeah. Some random kid is in the street yelling something to someone...weird.

I'm kinda hungry, so I should probably make myself some food of some kind soonish. I have a big 2 litre bottle of coke in the fridge =3 Yay. Now I'm going to drink it.

That is all.

I didn't get in contact with Rohan, so I managed to miss out on going to Sydney to see Lauren, AGAIN. Not only that but Blutonium Boy was performing live at a massive hard trance rave at In Blue which started 7 hours ago which I am missing out on because I am broke. Plus I feel like crap for reasons other than those stated here. Life can kiss my ass.

But it's not all bad I spose. What am I talking about? Of course it's all bad!! *Twitches from the pessimism*

When will the madness stop, people? I don't really know. All I know is that I am going to SIT HERE and play my Guitar for the next few years waiting for something to happen because I am so sick and tired of chasing a bone on a string that keeps getting further away the longer I try to get at it.

*sigh* I guess I am lying when I tell people there's nothing wrong. Yes, there is something wrong, and this is what it is.

I just don't want people worrying so much about my state of mind. However, I do appreciate it when people care about me. Thank you all for your thoughts. It really does help.

This is just a big cliff edge that I have come across, I need to find the bridge to get over it. But hey, at least I know I'm making a difference for the better in one persons life. And I'm proud to be doing it.

So it's not really all bad after all.

EDIT: You know I just realised something. The tabs along my browser are a good indication of my train of thought. Each tab represents a page on a topic that I felt like researching at the time, and all accumulated within the time frame of about an hour. It goes across from left to right, starting with Adium, then Livejournal, The site of a Robotics company, Online dictionary of Programming Languages, A Review of Existing Languages, a Definition on Haskell, and a random IRC chat log.

One can learn a lot about me and what I think about from the tabs on my browser.

Hey all, what's going on. I'm sitting here, making Emily really really envious of my typing abilities. She now lives with us. Hurrah! I just made us breakfast. Apparently I'm good at making breakfast. Hurrah! Wow, I said hurrah twice. Hurrah! Now time for some seriously awesome Psytrance music.

Bigpuss is laying down on meh.

I think that is all for now. Oh, and I have learned, never wake Emm up at 5 in the morning. >_<

That is all.

Ok, my cat Milo has a purr so loud it could wake the dead. I can imagine him working in a hospital.

  "Doctor, we've lost her" "Hope is not lost, we can't give up now.  I need an orange cat, stat!" -- Half hour later -- "Doctor, you saved her!" "Don't thank me, thank Milo.  He is the true hero today.  How can we ever thank you Milo?" "Meow!"

^_^

Yes hello all I am once again awake at 5am. Feel the wrath of my random writings! I need to burn some more CDs to play in my friends Discman that he lent me. It plays MP3 CDs which is really handy. It was raining about 10 minutes ago, but I made stabbing gestures with a ballpoint pen in the direction of the rainclouds, and it actually stopped raining o.0

Amazing.

Pat has fallen in love with Psytrance. Good on him, too.

That is all.

Welp, I'm moving to Newcastle everyone. Me and a bunch of my friends are going to get a group house down there. Hurrah!

Will be gone before this year is out. I will come back down for visits though, so don't worry all.

That is all.

COFFEH

Is our friend.

Well, is my friend at least.  Good morrow, it is 5 AM and I am listening to drum and bass, and the sounds of birds outside my window.

And my dog snoring, but that's a different matter.  To those of you that don't know me, I will show you a picature of me.

AAAH IT'S HIDEOUS

Wait, it's just me...phew.  When I get thos promo photos back from Joel I will show you all a better photo.  Or two.

Maybe more.

But yes, that is me.  Nick is my name, and Nerf is all I have to say.  Time for more coffeh, back when high.

Yaaah....Just-a-waitin for my Ritalin to kick in, and then I can be super happy and SUPER RANDOM. Whargh. Anyway, you are all probably wondering about why I haven't been updating in a few days. Or...maybe not. Maybe no one actually reads my journal. Oh well that's ok. Well, to tell you the truth, I haven't been stuffed. Hurrah!

So now I will probably keep these updates going again. Ok, it's time now for the Nerf Week in Review!

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This is what you have all been waiting for. The Nerf week in review. YAY! This will become a weekly thing, probably happening every Sunday, just to review what has been happening over the course of the last 7 days of my life, and to recap, and summarise. This is Issue #1 of the Nerf Week In Review.

Ok, first on the agenda, I got a new board. Well, it's not exactly new, but it's a board! Joel gave it to me because it was a spare of his. It's been used a bit but it's still good.

Next thing, on Friday, I had my track played at Red Gecko again ^_^ and they all loved it again. And I gave contact details over to DJs again. Yay! I also tried to get into Lithium but I didn't have the cash =(

Another thing that happened was that Joel (not the guy that gave me the board, but the guy that came with me on Friday) managed to get me to try a cigarette! I tried a Winfield Blue (8's apparantly) and it tastes like caramel. Also, if you hold it in for long enough your lungs and mouth sting. Not cool. Anyway, that was a different experience.

If I get addicted, blame Joel.

We have also been working on our plan of attack into the music industry, as well as working on some music. We also took promo photos, yay!

Anyway, since I couldn't go to The Awakening, Alex said he would take me to this big psytrance rave going on at a club in Sydney on the 15th which I asked him to take me to. Hurrah! Meaning I probably get to see Lauren this weekend. YAY!

Now my parental and her friend have demanded that I go and get milk from the shops. Onward, on my quest to get the milk!! So here ends the Week in Review. Hope you all enjoyed it. I shall see you next time!

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Microsoft has released information and a few developer sites on a "new (stolen) technology" of theirs that they call Gadgets. I found out about this from a message board, which had gathered information from a MacDailyNews article published about this so-called "New Technology". His post goes like this:

"Have you ever wondered how new technologies get developed in Microsoft? Wonder how a cool idea goes from incubation to release? Well, we’re excited to announce that we’ve started a blog designed to bring you closer to the process with the Gadgets blog and we’re kicking it off at the PDC," Microsoft's "Microsoft Gadgets" website reads.

MacDailyNews Take: No, we never wondered how new technologies get developed or how a cool idea goes from incubation to release at Microsoft. We even know the address from whence such cool ideas and technologies come: 1 Infinite Loop, Cupertino, CA 95014.

Microsoft's "Microsoft Gadgets" page also reads, "What are Gadgets? Gadgets are a new category of mini-application designed to provide information, useful lookup, or enhance an application or service on your Windows PC or the Web."

MacDailyNews Take: Gee, thanks for the explanation. Gadgets are Widgets, but the name was already taken, so Microsoft just copied the idea and introduced unnecessary complexity and usability issues, as usual.

"Gadgets come in three flavors," Microsoft says.

MacDailyNews Take: Flavors? Now where have we heard that before? Oh, yes, from Apple. One of Microsoft's "flavors" is "Gadgets for Windows Sidebar." You know, like "Widgets for Mac OS X Dashboard." Simple, huh?

Anyway, Microsoft's so "super-excited" about the "cool idea" they've been "incubating," that they want people to start start building their own. More info: http://www.apple.com/macosx/features/dashboard/ Oops, sorry: http://microsoftgadgets.com/

MacDailyNews Take: To those who wish to scream "Konfabulator," we present you "Apple Mac Desk Accessories" circa 1984.

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Microsoft is really pushing it this time. I dont think they have come out with a product that hasn't ripped off some other company in the past 5 years.

I am going to be sick. Microsoft must be crazy. They are ripping off Apple, and konfabulator, and DesktopX, all at the same time! Now, we know Microsoft loves stealing other peoples ideas, but this is just ridiculous! Do they think we are stupid?? Microsoft must be loving the fact that nothing they ever do will ever get them boycotted "Hey, we've blatantly stolen so many ideas right under the noses of the big politicians, and look at us, we are still the richest company in the world! We can do whatever we want!!" And you know what? They are bloody right, they are laughing at us, because nothing is actually going to happen to them no matter what they do.

And people still continue to use their stupid bug-ridden operating system. Why??

My God...

Man, after less than a day on DSL, and I already made the system permanently lock up once =P That was kinda easy.

The only bad part about this was that I had to do a hard reset. Basically holding the power button down for 10 seconds untill it cut the power to the system. Since DSL decided to store my home folder on ram, that means that when I got back onto DSL...

ALL MY FILES WERE GONE!

Thank God I have backups all on disks. However, all the themes, programs, and other stuff I downloaded for this, I will have to go and download all over again.

This just goes to show that basically no system is safe from lock ups. If you tax your system enough you can crash anything. Although, Mac OS X has never locked up on me from taxing the system too hard. I've put my PowerBook G4 15 inch titanium with a 500mhz (yes, 500 megahertz) with a gig of ram through the hard yards. I strained that system more than I have ever even thought of trying on my 2ghz Desktop computer, and it STILL doesn't lock up.

Windows on the other hand....

No I'm not talking about the size of someones genetalia, I'm talking about a linux distribution that is...

Wait for it....

50 meg's in size!!

That's right, an entire operating system that can fit on a business card CD! Hell, an entire operating system that can fit into your ram!! If you have 128 megabytes of ram or more, you can run this entire operating system from your ram! Do you know how unbelievably fast it runs when you run it in ram space?! It's insane!

If you have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm talking about Damn Small Linux. DSL is a nice little distribution containing a window manager I've never seen in my life....I think it's enlightenment or Fluxbox. Either one. It's kinda kooky, and takes a little while to get the hang of. However, it is extremely useful.

The operating system itself is also extremely useful. And, running in ramspace or not, it is always faster than a bat out of hell. For all you windows folk out there, or even other Linux folk out there, or Mac folk, have you ever seen a program open up and be ready to use the exact instant you run it? The only time I've ever seen that happen is when running Mac OS X on a dual-G5 64 bit tower with 8 gigs of ram. And I'm running a just barely on 2ghz Athlon XP 2800+ with 512 megs of ram here. This is a little biege compaq presario box.

It's kinda scary.

In ram space the programs open up so fast that you could almost swear it opened BEFORE you clicked it. Like it's reading your mind.

Quite amazing.

However this is only a temporary Operating System for me since PCLinuxOS raped itself. I'm really hoping to try out slackware, but it is like, 4cds worth. That's a lot to download, so while I wait, I sit on DSL here. I also tried installing PC-BSD earlier, but whaddya know, the only kernel it's got is made for intel i386 machines. I'm sitting here on an i686. Trying to boot up, the kernel breaks, and then panics in the strangest way. IO addresses scrolled down my screen constantly.

Oh well. You should all check out Damn Small Linux. http://www.damnsmalllinux.org

Go and get it. Now.

Yep. I'm not at The Awakening. I'm not weeping tears of joy because I'm dancing for 3 days straight to all-out Psy trance. Oh well, it's ok. I'll live. At least I get into Red Gecko for free this friday ^_^ and I had my track played, and everyone loved it, and I gave a demo CD to a guy involved with a record label (Don't worry, I didn't forget to add a copyright notice thing at the beginning of the CD, so he can't rip me off if it was his intention)

I might as well have my own trance party then =P fun, fun.

Fuck. Welp, looks like I'm probably not going to The Awakening after all.

Alex's car didn't pass rego test, the people he's hitching a ride with don't have any room in the car for me, not even his friend's car has room. I bought all these supplies too...$120 worth....

Ok, well I've now been emotionally downgraded to: "Bleh."

The only real chance I've got now is if somehow I can find a ride up there. Somehow. Doubtful.

Life is a real fucking bitch sometimes...

I AM THE HAPPIEST PERSON ON EARTH!! Woaha! I got my latest track Who Am I played at Red Gecko, by one of Australia's leading DJs! Holy fuck!!

And it rocked the house!!

Holy Fuck!!!

Still 3 days worth of clubbing to go. The party has only just begun! Mwahaha.

Oh, and another thing....

A Record Label is interested in my Music!!!

That is all.

Don't forget to check out Who Am I at my site, http://music.download.com/miracleblue

Whee, it's time for me to get hyper on Ritalin. Yay. ^_^ I'm going to the sydney 3-day rave on saturday! w00tness!!!! 72 straight fucking hours of Psy/Goa trance, all the time!! Yeehaaahahaha! I can't wait!! It's called The Awakening. Off on a private property in Nth Sydney, with camping grounds.

So...Much...Happiness.....YARR!!

*jumps*

*goes over edge of cliff*

I'm so happiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *fades away*

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*faint thud noise*

x.x

I swear some people go nuts after bedtime...

Well, considering I was just woken up by my loud speakers, because I forgot to turn the damn things off, I might as well write an update. There is a big Trance thing going on at Red Gecko tonight, heading out there. Should be real fun. Then, hopefully going to this massive 3-day outdoor trance rave event, on some private property north of Sydney. All camping ^_^ hurrah.

Now, back to bed. This has been an interesting, fun-filled month. You probably won't see any updates to this page for a few days, especially if I end up going to the massive rave. I will see you all...

Later.

Ah, more music ^_^ another psy-trance track called "Who Am I". I just finished uploading it, so hopefully it will be available for downloading/streaming in a day or two. This one's creepy =P

That's about it. Keep checking http://music.download.com/miracleblue for updates.

Linux World Expo comes to Australia next year in March ^_^ Oh I'm so happy!

Anyway, yes. Hi. I hae 50 CDs, so I can finally burn myself a non-faulty OS. I'm extremely sick of PCLinuxOS >_< I want something like Mandriva, PC-BSD or build my own LFS system.

Now I can do so. Hurrah!

Nerfity nerf nerf nerf. Nederf. Yeah, that's right Andrew, that means you.


^_^

And as life once again heads blindly into chaos, I sit and wonder why.

Why now? Why again? I thought it was over.

I guess I was wrong. *sigh* here we go again...